Hi, I’ve had a meth problem, five months clean but I know I could so easily go back. I don’t want to be that person again.
I’m also recovering from a breakdown last year, this wasn’t caused by drugs alone but the drugs obliterated my reality for me. Depression and anxiety aren’t helping.
I’m not sure I have the confidence to just turn up at a meeting, and I’m not sure if it’s for me anyway, so I’m a bit stuck. I also can’t phone the helpline because I have a problem with making or receiving phone calls because of my anxiety.
I just know I can’t go back to what I was and although I say I don’t want to, I know deep down I want it again.
If anyone can point me in the right direction I’d be really grateful, please don’t tell me to just go to a meeting because I really don’t think I’m able to do that, my mental health stops me from doing a lot of things.